The biological process known as mitosis, wherein one cell spits into two, the two split into four, et cetera, also known as cell division, has been a mysterious marvel to many scientists. Apparently something orchestrates a plan behind this process: the 16th million cell isn’t different from the first, and yet the cell division results in a distinctly unique and characteristic life form, which flourishes a while, and then to eventually wither and inevitably die. Scientists ask why this happens in the way it does, and what is directing the DNA as orchestrator of this evolutionary process?
Students of A Course in Miracles realize that this whole separation-and-division process is the sum and substance of the ego. After all, the ego is the idea of separation and division. Consider: when the tiny, mad idea of individuality seemed to occur in the mind of the Son of God, the Son pondered what would happen if the whole notion would be taken seriously. That mistake, the first and only one that was ever made (T-27.VIII.6:2), resulted in the first split: the ontological separation. (This is still before there seems to be such a thing as time.) Division works! The Son now seems to be autonomous, and separate from his true identity as Christ.
Of course, instantly comes the realization that this autonomy was bought at a considerable price: the shattering of the peace of Heaven. In fact, God has been overcome, since apparently He isn’t “all in all” anymore. Exhilaration quickly turns to fear, as the Son realizes with horrible guilt that this separation was a sin that can never be erased, and punishment for which will surely follow by the vengeful Creator Who is intent on taking back what was stolen from Him. The ego comes to the rescue by advising the Son to project the sin and guilt away to a new self. The Son, now — by his own election — an amnesiac slave to the ego, follows through and splits once more. Now he identifies with an innocent, sinless self, whereas the sin and guilt are seen in the split-off other self. Now he is on his own, with Heaven still shattered, but he cannot be held accountable, since the guilt is obviously in the other.
However, the fear isn’t gone: the Son now becomes bitterly afraid of this newly made-up victimizer self, which it perceives as the vengeful God, hellbent on ‘repaying’ His Son. Still, once more the ego comes to the rescue, following its own nature: separation and division. It advises the Son to hide from God by splitting up into billions of fragments. Again the Son complies, setting in motion what we now know as the Big Bang, which is also the beginning of time and space. The process of the dispersion of matter in the cosmos is essentially no different from the cell division of mitosis: we are living (or better: seem to be living) in the house of the ego, which by nature operates by separation and division. But is it natural? Hardly. As Jesus tells us: “The world goes against your nature, being out of accord with God’s laws.” (T-7.XI.1:5)
Kenneth Wapnick once jokingly remarked that DNA is short for “Do Not Accept”, that is, do not accept our real heritage as the one Son of God, safely at Home in the Kingdom of Heaven; the Heart of God. In lesson 95 of the workbook, Jesus comments on this amnesia about our real heritage: “You are one within yourself, and one with Him. Yours is the unity of all creation. Your perfect unity makes change in you impossible. You do not accept this, and you fail to realize it must be so, only because you believe that you have changed yourself already. […] You are one Self, the holy Son of God, united with your brothers in that Self; united with your Father in His Will. Feel this one Self in you, and let it shine way all your illusions and your doubts.” (W-pI.95.1:2;13:2-3) We of course think we do not want this unity, because it will “cost” us our precious individuality.
Gary Renard was offered the Gospel of Thomas by Pursah, containing the literal sayings that Jesus reportedly taught his disciples some two thousand years ago. It makes for interesting reading, especially when studied in Rogier Fentener van Vlissingen’s excellent book “Closing the circle”. In the context of our current topic, saying 79 is of particular interest. The story is as follows. A woman in the crowd said to him [Jesus], “Lucky are the womb that bore you and the breasts that fed you.” He said to her: “Lucky are those who have heard the word of the Father and have truly kept it. For there will be days when you will say, ‘Lucky are the womb that has not conceived and the breasts that have not given milk.’”
To the ego, this is utterly ridiculous. After all, “no more babies” eventually means total extinction. And it is certainly not what we think when our heart melts at the sight of a newborn cute little baby. However, Jesus is in effect saying to us: “This is still separation. You still ‘Do Not Accept’ your heritage as spirit, at home in the heart of God. Do not feel guilty about this, but do realize that the essence of physical reproduction is still a choice for the ego.” Now Jesus would never advise us to stop making babies, since the body is not the problem: it is a wholly neutral thing (W-pI.294), which can be used — by the mind — for either separation from, or joining with our brothers. The choice is up to us.
This of course is Jesus’ true call to all of us: evaluate what will truly bring the lasting inner peace “that passeth all understanding” (Phil. 4:7): shift the mind’s focus from separation and fear to joining and love, following the Holy Spirit’s guidance. Only then will the process of mitosis be seen in its right place, and eventually be discarded not with regret, but with a sigh of gratitude. Until that moment, which may indeed seem very far off, we need do nothing (T-18.VII) but practice forgiveness of our own condemning mind that remembers not to smile at all the judgment we indulge in, just to keep that silly notion of individual autonomy alive. Forgiveness teaches that it doesn’t matter. What matters only is the vigilance for the Kingdom, the only way to turn “Do Not Accept” into “Choose once again a better way”. Happy practicing!
See also “Miracles or Murder: a guide to concepts of A Course in Miracles“. This guidebook, endorsed by Gary and Cindy Renard, was published in March 2016 by Outskirts Press and is available at Amazon.com: